Friday, September 12, 2008

whats wrong with me ?!

is there something wrong with me ?! not that im some kind of freak but wtf Why is everyone treating me like i'm retarded? Am i a fucker that irritates you ? THEN FUCK OFF ! today melissa told her friends that she hates me o.O ok fine u can hate me all u want but i can fuck your head off. If you hate me soooooooooooooo much why do u still bother to even smile at me you bitch. Why do you chat with me on IM ? dumb bitch ! i shouldn't vent anger on this blog...i should stop this blog,let myself cool down then go kill that bitch. Yes its a more appropriate way. I'M GOING MAD BECAUSE OF THE WAY YOU IDIOTS TREAT ME,AM I YOUR DOG ? YOU CALL ME A "COACH" BUT WHAT THE FUCK I GET IS IDIOTS STEALING MY FOOTBALL AND RUNNING AROUND DOING FUCKING STUNTS WITH IT. I'm speechless...So many things just happened in a day...and the same sentence comes in ...Sometimes i just can't answer the questions i ask myself.
feeling abit sick...decided to skip remedial..din go for 1 week le..i dont feel guilt for not going. I feel angry ! I'VE DISAPPOINTED EVERYONE. I CRASHED IN ORAL .AND SOON I'M GONNA CRASH IN EVERYTHING . GOD WHY THE FUCK WAS I BORN WITH SUCH A BRAIN. WHY DIDN'T YOU MAKE ME SMARTER LIKE MY DAD WHO CAN SCORE SO MANY As BUT I JUST SCORE F F F F F F F I DON'T WANNA GET INTO R.I I WANNA LEAVE THIS SCHOOL ! BUT I DON'T HAVE THE DAMN BRAINS TO PASS CHINESE ENGLISH MATHS OR SCIENCE. MY PARENTS HELP ME SHIT ITS NOT WORKING GODDAMMIT SOMEBODY JUST KNOCK ME DOWN WITH A CAR OR STAB ME WITH A KNIFE I'D RATHER LIVE IN HEAVEN WITH A GOLDEN PSP THAN LIVE MY LIFE HERE WHERE I CAN GET RETAINED AGAIN AGAIN AND AGAIN. God help me. I'd do anything to pass this fucking national test.

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