Hey guys. Sorry for not updating. Alot has happened. Don't wanna talk about the past.

Enjoying Life.

Been Great.

Loves Rugby even more.

Still going on.

EOYs are coming soon.

Have you started REVISION?

Its pretty hectic right now. I can feel the pressure. And i bet the pressure from the N Level and O Level Examinations would be way worse. Studying hard. After exams i'm gonna take up guitar and all. My knee is injured so i'm pretty much out of those super hard sports like Footy. Though i do play abit here and there. I just don't go around sprinting and shooting in goals.

Jazlynn is Awesome; Pure Genius. says:

good cos i finally broke my "no goal" 2009 haha

i finally scored

xP

i dont score cos im a keeper

but i played outfield today

* - - ; Jazlynnnn ` ` Nanana, Diva is a Female Version of A Hustlaa. says:

lol, ur life revolves around soccer and rugby. no life much ?

heh kidding

Lol. Best. That line really did wake me up. Why is my life just revolving around Soccer and Rugby? I would hang out alot with my friends if i could...But i'm not the sort you know. Rich kids. Getting cash everytime i go out. My parents ask me to save. Good! But i can't save much. So... =)

Everyone is rich. Yes. If not they wouldn't be wearing school uniforms or even be able to live in Singapore. It is true,i sacrificed alot of time hanging out with my buddies with going out to the street soccer court and kicking the ball around myself. I'd have a giant blue bag with footballs inside with a box of drinks in my other hand. Then i'd grab a sip of water before i started training. All by myself. I guess thats what brought me here. If i didn't do that i'd be a frickin' noob at footy right now. I still am though. Hehe. So,which would you prefer? Doing your own hobbies,or hanging out with your mates? Yes its pretty true you can enjoy sports and your hobbies with your mates. But i just prefer doing it alone. If i could,i'd go up to a field,sit down. Look at the sky and just reflect. But i can't! (Cos i'm pretty busy with EOYs) Or maybe this Friday since i'm catching football at School with my mates again.

Besides that,i have carefully planned my red packet thing. Assuming i'll get $1000 next year,which i did this year. I'll get whatever i really,really,REALLY need. Ahem,yes clothes.

I want these things (Some are really impossible to get.)

1.Tees.

2.Pants/Bermudas.

3.Birkenstocks! (Though someone said it was pretty gay...lol.)

4.Ipod Touch (Cos of the games lololol.)

5.Canon 450/500D DSLR.

6.More Allowance. (Sorry i'm not being greedy,i just need more to save.)

Pretty much 4,5 and 6 is impossible. I may get 4! Provided i have the permission...stupid. 5 is totally impossible. It'll cost more than 1k. >.<

6...lol need to negotiate. Though i am pretty sure i won't succeed.

Hehe!~

Got nothing much to do now. Gotta finish my math homework. Don't want to be sent out of class.

Seeya!

Today was great! Abit weird. But i guess its supposed to be that way. Can't wait for tomorrow! Theres gonna be NCC...according to some of my friends its our "Sports Day!" Haha,can't wait to see what sports or activities we're gonna be having up for us. Just finished Math homework..which i was supposed to finish long time ago. Hehehe.

Rather short blogpost today...nothing much to yak about. XD

Guess thats all.

Seeya.

Tomorrow's Dominic's Birthday! Woopee!

I'm really....sorta angry now.

My mom told me she'd want my pc out of my room. Basically out at the living room.

She said she needs it out because she has to do some work on my pc. What rubbish???

I bet its more of my parent's plan to get me off the pc. If it is,i just wonder why my family can't be frank with me??? Why must they use such dumb antics on me? I know every trick they play on me,cos its just plain old school tricks...always used in primary school on the young kids.

But it doesn't really limit my usage...that much. I just can't be on it overnight...*sigh* But i can use it and watch TV! Awesome! But no good shows now...lol. Mainly its not just the pc..its the fact that my parents can't be honest with me...sian. Nevermind lah! Just gotta deal with it..imagine after my EOYs all day can use computer...hohoho. I guess being slightly nudged off the pc also gives me sometime to go out and play soccer...and perhaps i'll hang out even more with my friends...which i don't really do. Cos my friends all just go malls,talk cock, and rot. Nooo i'd rather go somewhere,sit down,grab a drink and just chat about random stuff.

Nvm. One way or another i'll find another way to find a place ...where i can go to..where i can be care free...

What a day today. Very simple one. Got home after school.

I did nothing,but stay on the pc. I was staring at my Math Textbook...but i just couldn't do it.

So it dragged till 6+...before i caught another Asthma Attack! (Shit!) So got my mom to write a letter...skipping NCC again. Or more like being excused from it. Maybe i'll consider visiting SSC to get my pc microphone at Challenger. My last visit to SSC was long time ago this year. And i walked there straight from school. To collect Coca-Cola cans for my Coke Zero Ad. I remember visiting Challenger another time to buy WoW from Challenger..maybe tomorrow i will go to SSC and see what i can find..besides Challenger theres Daiso...hehe worth going right? Its a new place. Pretty nice. But i cannot imagine having to walk back from SSC to the bus stop. Ok,besides that,i was smsing Jamie this evening...she told me she saw Sherman's Mom...haha after that i asked her how she was and stuff...and i told her i didn't have any motivation to study...then she replied to my sms with this line that really made me reflect...

"Then learn. I think,you have to make it a habit ya?"

For those who don't get it,she is telling me to make studying a habit.

Well obviously Jamie is extremely skilled and can do it without switching on the PC...which means she is very,very disciplined. I wanna be like you,mom! (Jamie,LOL) I guess i can try tomorrow? :)

Okay,thats about it.

Gotta hit the sack now!

Tomorrow is a long day...with Art lessons and F&N too!

For those F&N Students who have been struggling to find Ms Peh's Facebook...fret not!

I have found her on Facebook! But i didn't add her. Loool.

Kay,seeya !

Hey guys. Its the 1st week of Term 4. I have around 6 weeks or so.

Exams will be around week 3-5. The exams are important cos its for my promotion to Sec 2.

Failing this means spending 2010 in Secondary 1.

Anyway,was in a Spelling Bee competition this afternoon. The stress really agitated me. All i could was pray...and God helped me! I was given such a easy word!!!

Guess what it was...?

TRANSLATE.

Haha pretty easy! Spelt it out without hesitation. I'm in the Top 15 group alongside Diny. The finals will be next Tuesday. Next Monday is a Public Holiday..thanks to Hari Raya Puasa being on a Sunday. 4 day weekend! Friday+Saturday+Sunday+Monday...shiok lah! haha!

Today had really nothing much. Simple lessons. Very relaxing day in school.

Anyway today was fun. Taught some "New DJ" how to use winamp and so on. Rather ulu TFM...don't know how many people they recruiting. Haha! Okay,gotta zoom off...Someone wants to play around with my pc...tsk tsk!~

JAZLYNN IS AWESOME , SHE IS PURE GENIUS.

Baby,it's been a long time waiting...

Such a long,long time...

And i can't stop smiling...

No i can't stop now...

Do you hear my heart beating?

Can you hear that sound?

Cos' i can't help cryin'

And i won't look down.

If i got this far. I wouldn't have stopped. But i was never a step forward at all. In your eyes,i was just a friend. A friend who would laugh with you over corny jokes. But in my eyes,you are the sweetest thing ever. But i guess i'll never get to say that to you...

When you are at the end of your rope,tie a knot in it and hang on. - Franklin D. Roosevelt

This quote goes out to this buddy of mine. Hey,i know you're having lots of problems right now...you're on the verge of going mad. But hey,i'm there for you man. Whatever you need,be it help or whatever just tell me. I'll do whatever i can. Besides me...theres one man..who will always be there. God. Just pray,laddie. Pray and God will work in many ways.

Hey. Day 3 of the 1 week holiday.

Wasted today again.

Tomorrow shall not be wasted! I am heading down to school to train...soccer. Myself.

Loner.

Lol. Anyway,Will talk about the RP event since Crunchy lady reminded me about it.

It was a Netball tournament. My school netball girls worked hard,but still got pwned.

Tomorrow will train hard. Burn my calories.

Thats all.

Seeya.

Its day 2 of our 1 week holiday.

Well i've been kinda pondering over what has happened over the past 9 months. And between June and August,seems to be the most exciting moment of my life this year.

I was listening to Fix You by Coldplay just now,and some lines from the song just reached out to me...

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want,but not what you need

When you feel so tired,but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste...

Could it be worse?

God has given me everything in life...but i lost alot of them...and i really can't replace it.

And pretty much i do love Jazlynn. I don't know if i can say the love i have is just plain old crap. No use loving her. I won't say that. I really do love her. But sometimes...it just won't work. When she doesn't feel the same,she doesn't. I won't force her. If not she won't be happy. If i have to let her go,i will find it hard to...but i can.

Now,i really ask myself,what have i been doing for the past 9 months...its plainly NATO (No action talk only.) Well i can say : "I've been on the PC all day,never walked the dog and i hardly studied unless tests were coming."

Then i will say : "I must stop this habit. If not,if i continue this way till Secondary 5 i will fail my O levels!"

Its plainly NATO...good i know myself..haha

So time to change and be serious.

I also need to exercise. Getting fatter now. I am trying to lose weight...not to impress girls but to make sure i stay fit. I don't want diabetes or heart problems.

Anyway,short post today. Gotta go.

Seeya.

You only act like you're a "Christian" when you have to.

I can only say you're a hypocrite.

Think you're a very good role model to us? Nah. Being a hypocrite won't teach us anything.

Why do you talk to my sister so nicely.

Why do you talk to your wife so nicely.

If i told you the 2 things you could do to make yourself a better father,i think you'd disagree to it.

Because you and i do not mix. Despite being Father and Son. It does not mix. Why? Because you do not trust me. The more i see you do not trust in me,the more hatred i have for you. You screwed the bond you had with me last year. I thought 2009 would be a fresh start. You are forever the same. Especially when your wife isn't at home. I am going mad. I don't mean angry,kind of mad. I will go mentally insane. Your words are driving me up the wall. Accusing me of lying. Why not just kick me out of the family? Why not just leave me out? I'm not part of your family. I am not being treated like one. I feel like crying. I know,boys shouldn't cry...but. I just...wanna let it out. Why are you being so nice to your wife. Why are you being so nice to your daughter. Why are you not being nice to your son. Maybe,i wasn't your flesh and blood. Perhaps i was adopted,so you really don't give a shit about me. I don't hate you. I love you so much. Because God gave me a father like you. But why do you do this to me...maybe i'm just not being a good son. I wish i could be a better son. If only i was in a good school like HCI or RI...having a great CCA...with so many nice people. You'd be proud,you could go around telling your colleagues i scored high grades for PSLE and got into a good school. But i'm not. I'm in a normal school. I can't pass Math like you did. I can't pass Chinese like you did. I'm different. I'm sorry,i'm just too dumb. I'm not in ACS,neither am i in RI. But i'm making the most of my life. I'm doing something that can bring me further. I just wish you'd see what i do in school. I just wish you'd realise that i'm not in school,hiding in the toilet during lessons. I'm in the classroom doing work with my friends. Maybe ever since PSLE you think i'd never take exams seriously.

I'm not your daughter. I'm not so smart as my sister. I'm never gonna be in an Express class. I can never score A1 for Math. Neither can i score A1 for all subjects. I just wish you could accept me for who i am. I'm your son. And if you can't accept me. Then i'll leave this world.