Trust is so important,especially if its in a person you love so dearly.

As a man...trust your woman's words. When she says she cares about you,she does.

Let's just say...I had the best 5 minutes of my life,reading that email. ;)

All my delight is in you,Lord.

What will my heart feel in a few months time?

Will I still love you like I do?

I don't think I ever will.

It's time to start again.

Leaving for Tokyo in like 3 days? Leaving on Saturday. :(

Managed to chat a lil with Chels. Messaged her via FB for like 4 times? 3? I forgot.

Sometimes I just wonder why some random girl like her would actually talk to me about her relative over FB...such a caring person. Really thank God for bringing me such a great friend man.

She's leaving for the US tomorrow! Nyuuuu Duno when she's back though.

Life has been great. Can't wait to get to Tokyo. Imagine all the cool air! Winter! Yeeeeeeeeeeeehaw!

Pride has torn us apart.

Where were you when I needed you the most?

Gone away.

I watched us fall apart.

I'm sorry Jazlynn.

I miss you alot.

But leaving you,was the better thing to do.

There's no use in trying when the pieces don't fit anymore.

I will only reflect now.

Somehow I only really think about stuff at like 2am in the morning.

You know Jaz,

I still love you.

I regret leaving you.

But I wanted the pain to stop.

I love you so much.

So,so much.

I lost so much along the way.

And hey,It didn't go to waste.

I just wish I could see you one last time.

I don't need your love,my girl.

I just wanna see your beautiful smile.

I still love you.

And forever will.

Jazlynn.

Gurpreet says:

You left jaz ?!

soap says:

yea...

I'm happier without her..

I still talk to her. But not as much.

I just ask her how she's been

Then I stop.

Gurpreet says:

Uhh, so it's all good now la.

soap says:

Yeah

I told her how i really felt

It was sick man i kinda pissed her off

But I had to get it off my chest anyway

Gurpreet says:

Either way, she had to deal with the fact that you love her and prolly, will always do.

soap says:

Yea...

But! I guess its just not..bound for us

or she just isnt ready..

I think I just need time

When people say wait..when it comes to love its waiting not just for 5 months

but longer..

unconditional love..haha

Gurpreet says:

Hmm, everything happens for a reason .

soap says:

haha true

im still doing the tee for her though

Gurpreet says:

WHY !

Why waste your money sia?!

soap says:

not waste marnee

If I had to I'd spend on you too aye.

I can't go back on my word now can I

I think this is my last chance

to tighten my grip

Gurpreet says:

But it will be of no worth .

Seriously ballz /

:)

It's not the end Jaz.

I just don't have that feeling anymore. (Actually I do just that it's under control now. :P)

It's time to surrender.

I've been pretending for too long.

Sometimes I have to let go

When the pieces just don't fit anymore.

I hide how I feel.

I let it out.

But it never helps.

No matter how far we are apart.

Even if we don't see each other.

We stop talking to each other.

And we lose each other over Skype,Msn and our Handphones..

Just remember.

I'll hold your hand. And I'll hold on.

I won't let go.

I am amazed by you all the time.

Sometimes it's so hard to believe,that such a beautiful girl like you ever lived.

You were the love of my life.

I'd do anything to keep you by my side.

I have never seen anything as beautiful as you.

You are impossible to find...

You are breath-taking...

The beauty of the setting sun,and you...are the best way to end the day.

But now that's all gone.

I learned to sacrifice for Love.

I lost so much along the way for you.

I thought if I left you I'd be able to find whatever I've lost.

But I've lost some things that are just so dear to me...just for you.

You won't feel the pain I feel.

Because you just don't care.

You don't care whether you've hurt me.

Now that doesn't matter.

Sacrifice.

I don't usually do this...

But I decided to.

I took the time...

To sit down,and think about Jazlynn.

What would be the outcome?

Its full of positive and negative points.

I'm trying my very best to be positive.

Jazlynn,take my hand,and I'll bring you somewhere where no one can ever hurt you...

Right now I'm working on it.

I need patience.

And I need You,J.

Don't leave my side.

Burn Me Down.

I would have given up my life for you.

Love is Blind.

Have you been lying to me?

I don't know if you really liked what i've been doing for you...

If you don't,please be honest with me.

But I choose to believe you,because I love you more than life.

I don't care how much you hurt me...how shattered I am right now...

My heart may never mend,but I still love you.

Forgiveness says I should give you another try.

But...why?

Was I even your friend?

I know...we met online...through your brother.

But still...I just don't get it.

I have lost so many things along this path i chose. Please don't do this to me...

It's not too late. It will never be,J. I'll love you till my last day in this world.

I take the ball.

I look around.

With wingers charging towards me,

I struggle to run with the ball.

My team is tired and restless.

We are a few minutes away from Full Time.

I must give my team the win.

If not we won't win what we wanted to.

I move the ball forward,

A fake with my right foot makes the winger slide in the wrong direction,

I quickly tap the ball with the outside of my lefty and watch out for my strikers.

I run forward,slowly applying pressure on our opponent's defense...

Soon I get a clear shot,but the keeper's position is so close I won't be able to score.

My strikers are behind me,shagged and lazy to run forward.

I take the ball forward,breathing in,

I shoot with the outside of my right foot,hoping to slice it into the net.

It goes up...keeper saw it on my left,dives towards the ball's direction...

Right before he catches it,it swings to the other side of the post,hitting the bar and into the net.

I have saved my team. A victory. A crucial victory.

And all this?

Comes from.

adidas predator X firm ground boots. :)

I forgot to say to you,how beautiful you really are to me.

I can't be without you.

Don’t look back and leave

Don’t find me again and just live on.

Because I have no regrets from loving you

I can bear without you in some way

I can stand it in some way

If you're happy without me

Leave me.

Feeling shit inside,but I force myself to smile,for you.

Don't keep me in the dark,please.

Is this what I get from loving you?

What i did today was incredible.

Well of course there are always consequences...

A fat swollen ankle. Ouch. :/

But so long as Jaz is happy,I am!

:)

I still have more plans. HEE.

No,stay.

I can't let you go.

After loving you,

I can never be the same.

I just can't walk away,

Because after loving you,

I can never be the same.

How can I ever pretend that I never knew you?

I know I'll never forget,

The way I always felt when you were with me.

You left me here and I watched you disappear.

You left this emptiness inside me.

And no,I can't turn back time.

I want to leave you,for your sake.

But I can't.

Because I love you so much.

I never want to let go.

Let me see myself...slowly burn and lose all hope...

And show you how much I love you.

Lose hope in me,but not yourself.

If you have been in love with someone else...

Thats okay.

It's alright.

I still love you.

Just tell me now,if you are with someone else.

Don't leave me hanging on a moment...

Don't waste my time...

But I won't think of this...

I will still do what i planned to do...

This broken heart can still pull through,with a touch of your grace.

If you want to take me away from her,

Let me just have her by my side...

For once.

I love you,

You love me,

We are happy family!

With a great big hug,

And a kiss from me to you,

Won't you say you love me too???

I MISS YOU!!!

Edit : I didn't know Dom did this. Woopsie. Haha.

Dominic did it! XD

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

Just don't turn away.

All I ever wanted
was to be what you needed
cause something so strong
it could never be wrong.
And all I can promise
is to say what I'm feeling
We've made it so long

I CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHATS GOING ON IN YOUR SICK,TWISTED MIND.

I CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHY I FORCED MYSELF TO LOVE YOU.

WHEN I KNEW IT WAS JUST SHIT.

IT WAS WASTING MY TIME.

I Thought she knew
My world revolved around her
My love light burned for her alone
But she couldn't see the flame
Only myself to blame
I should have known

A heart full of words left unspoken.

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're the sunlight in my eyes

Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you.

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit here anymore.

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood,
All the ones around me,
I cared for and loved.

I miss you.

I miss all the little things,
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me,
Yeah, I miss you,
And I wish you were here.

I'm sorry,Jaz.

I will be taking a bloody long break from blogging.

I'll only return when i think i am really ready to.

Woken up yet?

No.

Take a breath,
Hold it in

It is over.

Jazlynn,

I cut off all connections i have with you.

Facebook,MSN,Handphones and even some notes i wrote for you just that i never sent it to you.

Right now,you'd either be..."What the f**k?"

Or "Right,whatever! I don't need you too!"

Yes. That could be it.

But think again...i saw you as a friend. I saw you as someone i could turn to. Someone i WOULD LOVE TO BE WITH ALL MY LIFE.

But you didn't feel the same.

Your brother told me everything.

It isn't his fault.

I asked for it.

I wasted my own time.

I hurt myself.

I won't ever get near you.

But i'll remember you.

You always have a spot in my heart yeah.

You can forget me,but i won't.

See you! If we ever do bump into each other at Wheelock or something :)

I imagined this little thing as a Mountain.

I wanted to climb this Mountain and reach the peak. Because i knew at the peak i could be with the person i love.

I never thought halfway through this climb i thought it was just a waste of time.

I chose not to believe my friends. I denied them again and again,i told them it was NOT ONE SIDED LOVE AT ALL.

I guess it was.

People have many ways of expressing love. I'm sure you felt it. You just didn't care. What do i have to do to make you care?

All i can say now is.

Goodbye.

Yeah today was good.

I'd like to share something i said in DCG today.

The boys were supposed to share their personal experience where they were afraid,and the first thing they did was to Pray.

This was what i said.

There was once i wanted to do something for my friend's birthday. I did it,but on my way home i just wondered would she like it? What if it doesn't turn out well? This went on till 10+ until i revealed the "gift" to her. It went smoothly. But it could have only gone this way because i prayed to God. I prayed to God and after that i could tell myself that God is with me. I have nothing to be afraid of or be nervous. Because i have God.

And well thats one...

And yeah i'm still thinking about her.

I do still have my doubts.

These doubts are soon making me think the wrong way. I am thinking in such a way where i have no chance at all...

Yeah,i am always thinking,is she just talking to me to make me happy? Is she just faking it? I don't know. If i did know,i wouldn't be here anymore. I'll wait. =)

But i do know that what i plan to do is very,very risky. I know its sort of a "gamble."

And if i fail with this little plan of me,i'll definitely be scarred for life.

All i can do is pray...and leave it to God.

He will help me.

My plans bring us all the way to 2010. Even further,i guess.

Now comes the hard part...what if she doesn't feel the same way?

Most likely you all would be like "its another doubt."

Yes it is,but its very,very different. If she doesn't feel the same way at all...i really don't know what to do or say.

I have yet to get the best out of me.

It doesn't really matter,how long i have to make you love me.

I'll work hard.

And...everyone that knows what situation i am right now,said that what i'm doing for you is a waste of time and money. They always tell me there are many other fishes out in the sea.

But you're the special one.

If i get so far,but yet i still fail to make you love me...then i will just let it be.

My plans drag you and me all the way to 2010. But i'm willing to wait.

Because.

I love you. :)

Hey guys,sorry for not updating. My EOYs just ended,and basically for the next 2 weeks,or 1 week,my school has squeezed in some activities to keep us occupied. On Tuesday i have this NCC thing...seems fun i duno. On Wednesday i think i have some games...i think i'm doing Photography again. Haha! I don't know about the rest. But i do know on the 29th of Oct,a few schools are coming down to SMB and i'm in the team for Mediacomm...

So yeah,its gonna be a busy week.

Tomorrow's Deepavali!

Heading down to Yohinee's place...hehehehehe.

Sunday,heading down early to West Coast Park Beach to just...take some photos. Emo for awhile. I donno.

And it'll be back to school...again.

Seeya. :)

You'll never see me again.

And i'll never see you too.

Promise.

Sometimes when pieces of a puzzle don't match. Just keep looking. Keep looking. You'll find it.

The most painful part of my body is...

My Heart.

What day it has been!!!!

Awesome day.

Art Lesson was the best!

Sat in with Gurpreet,our assignment was to draw 3 expressions from our partner's faces...and yes my partner was Gurpreet...so...i kinda struggled to draw her face cos of her fringe...sigh.

Haha! And it looked awful!!! If only i got pictures of it! Too bad i didn't...

I must say Jin Yuan did a good job with Henry! XD

The day was very simple,had a lecture done by Mr Zaf during Math lesson..i think he really told us the truth. We are passive learners. We memorise,instead of the correct way. (Understanding.)

Time to "wake up my idea" and start moving.

Besides that,Jazlynn gave me a call...but i didn't pick it up. Sorry,was having dinner. Called back. Nothing. Smsed. And she called again! I thought it was some random call until she asked me "Is your sister in Dance Arts?" blahblahblah all questions and all. Haha! Yeah,i'm bringing my camera tomorrow,to snap a few photos of the boys playing street soccer,and also to do this little..retarded idea of mine. I will take pictures of people's faces,with different expressions...and pile them all up. Man! Its gonna be damn retarded XD

Tomorrow is Jazlynn's birthday.

=)

I sure do remember. Haha!

Gotta go.

Seeya!

God Bless!

Hey guys!

Been a real great day.

Got a new sport...TCHOUKBALL.

Awesome sport,learnt it so quickly thanks to the Awesome Coaches.

The coach said he likes my fighting spirit...i think he mistook my yelling at players for my fighting spirit...haha but we did great with a 6-5 win. Yi Hon's killer pass that went straight into my hands ended up with a "flying shot."

Next week,selections will be done for our first C-Boys squad for the next Inter-School tournament that takes place ... from 20-21 October i think.

Besides that,examinations are coming sooooooooooooooooooooooo quickly.

I just wanna get over with the examinations.

Then i can enjoy life after that...yesah. =)

Really short day...again haha.

Tomorrow theres FnN and Art...sigh.

Guess thats all.

Seeya!

Hello.

;)

:)

;)

:)

I skipped Aikido thingy today ;)

Got caught by papa.

Fine, I ALMOST DID.

Happy now Andre ? :)

Yeah. Meow. Meow.

Meowmeow

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Well...that was Jazlynn. Again. Haha!

Today was great. Really relaxing. Had a real meaningful pre-examination talk by Mr Raj.

Looking forward to hammering Lenny. >:)

Choob.

Seeya.

Patience. And Courage?

Hellooooooooo!

Had a real fun day at church and all.

And...i did ask her today.

And i got the answer.

It really does speak the truth.

I'll just move wit the flow.

If we only see each other...6 months later.

I'll wait.

I'll be very,very patient.

You got my word.

XD

I guess i let it all out yesterday night.

Was i too harsh with my words?

I'm sorry. Just remember i didn't mean you feel guilty.

I just needed you to know how i felt.

Every time you say hi to me over msn,it just brings a smile on my face.

But i know...

I can either let go.

Or stay on.

Where should i go?

I was gonna tell you today,i even wrote the words i could say,i finally found the courage.

But now,its too far.

I don't need special antics...to make her love me...

I just need,whatever you feel deep down in your heart.

I can't keep reminding you that i'm in love with you.

If all i get is "Aww..."

What will that mean?

I just need it once.

Once. Just tell me. Please.

Don't keep me waiting.

I'm sure your heart will find its way.

If it doesn't come to me,and goes to someone else.

I will learn to let go.

But right now,all i need is an answer.

What will it take for you to really,really take what i say seriously?

When i told you i liked you,i wasn't lying.

I know its awkward how we met each other.

But i'm willing to bring it further.

What about you?

Its not your fault if you don't want to.

I just need to know...

If you feel the same.

Don't keep making me think i'm getting closer and closer...instead i'm just getting further away from you.

Its no use for me to flirt,make you laugh,or just talk to you.

I'm not saying if you don't feel the same i'd never talk to you.

I'm so hungry for that reply. It has been a month. (Or so.)

I just assume,if it doesn't come to me...then you just don't give a damn about me or you don't how to answer.

If you don't know,just come talk to me. Please.

If you look at a guy,and just like him because of the looks. You are not appreciating him.

Look on the inside. Never judge a book by its cover.

Don't feel bad or guilty after reading this. I am not typing this to make you feel sad or bad.

I'm just waiting for an answer.

I will wait.

Freak Accident.

Man! Today was the worst day of 2009!.

HELLO. MY NAME IS ANDRE KANG.

I AM SECONDARY 1

I JUST BROKE MY LEG TODAY.

I AM ALSO GOING TO BREAK MY FACE.

SO.

EXAMS ARE COMING. I HAVE TO STUDY

THEN I WILL BREAK MY FACE AFTER.

TODAY WAS VERY FUN, I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL

TO GET AN X RAY WEEEE.

AND ALL OF THAT,WAS TYPED BY THE WONDERFUL JAZLYNN

OF COURSE IM WONDERFUL. MEOW MEOW.

If you're wondering how she got on.

Google Teamviewer.

You'll get it.

And yes she summarised whatever i wanted to typed.

K.

Well...the accident was an accident.

Muhaimin,ain't your fault.

Accidents do happen. And Mr Gamini is a lousy medic! Haha!

Seeya!

meow meow woof woof.

jazlynn.

Hey guys. Sorry for not updating. Alot has happened. Don't wanna talk about the past.

Enjoying Life.

Been Great.

Loves Rugby even more.

Still going on.

EOYs are coming soon.

Have you started REVISION?

Its pretty hectic right now. I can feel the pressure. And i bet the pressure from the N Level and O Level Examinations would be way worse. Studying hard. After exams i'm gonna take up guitar and all. My knee is injured so i'm pretty much out of those super hard sports like Footy. Though i do play abit here and there. I just don't go around sprinting and shooting in goals.

Jazlynn is Awesome; Pure Genius. says:

good cos i finally broke my "no goal" 2009 haha

i finally scored

xP

i dont score cos im a keeper

but i played outfield today

* - - ; Jazlynnnn ` ` Nanana, Diva is a Female Version of A Hustlaa. says:

lol, ur life revolves around soccer and rugby. no life much ?

heh kidding

Lol. Best. That line really did wake me up. Why is my life just revolving around Soccer and Rugby? I would hang out alot with my friends if i could...But i'm not the sort you know. Rich kids. Getting cash everytime i go out. My parents ask me to save. Good! But i can't save much. So... =)

Everyone is rich. Yes. If not they wouldn't be wearing school uniforms or even be able to live in Singapore. It is true,i sacrificed alot of time hanging out with my buddies with going out to the street soccer court and kicking the ball around myself. I'd have a giant blue bag with footballs inside with a box of drinks in my other hand. Then i'd grab a sip of water before i started training. All by myself. I guess thats what brought me here. If i didn't do that i'd be a frickin' noob at footy right now. I still am though. Hehe. So,which would you prefer? Doing your own hobbies,or hanging out with your mates? Yes its pretty true you can enjoy sports and your hobbies with your mates. But i just prefer doing it alone. If i could,i'd go up to a field,sit down. Look at the sky and just reflect. But i can't! (Cos i'm pretty busy with EOYs) Or maybe this Friday since i'm catching football at School with my mates again.

Besides that,i have carefully planned my red packet thing. Assuming i'll get $1000 next year,which i did this year. I'll get whatever i really,really,REALLY need. Ahem,yes clothes.

I want these things (Some are really impossible to get.)

1.Tees.

2.Pants/Bermudas.

3.Birkenstocks! (Though someone said it was pretty gay...lol.)

4.Ipod Touch (Cos of the games lololol.)

5.Canon 450/500D DSLR.

6.More Allowance. (Sorry i'm not being greedy,i just need more to save.)

Pretty much 4,5 and 6 is impossible. I may get 4! Provided i have the permission...stupid. 5 is totally impossible. It'll cost more than 1k. >.<

6...lol need to negotiate. Though i am pretty sure i won't succeed.

Hehe!~

Got nothing much to do now. Gotta finish my math homework. Don't want to be sent out of class.

Seeya!

Today was great! Abit weird. But i guess its supposed to be that way. Can't wait for tomorrow! Theres gonna be NCC...according to some of my friends its our "Sports Day!" Haha,can't wait to see what sports or activities we're gonna be having up for us. Just finished Math homework..which i was supposed to finish long time ago. Hehehe.

Rather short blogpost today...nothing much to yak about. XD

Guess thats all.

Seeya.

Tomorrow's Dominic's Birthday! Woopee!

I'm really....sorta angry now.

My mom told me she'd want my pc out of my room. Basically out at the living room.

She said she needs it out because she has to do some work on my pc. What rubbish???

I bet its more of my parent's plan to get me off the pc. If it is,i just wonder why my family can't be frank with me??? Why must they use such dumb antics on me? I know every trick they play on me,cos its just plain old school tricks...always used in primary school on the young kids.

But it doesn't really limit my usage...that much. I just can't be on it overnight...*sigh* But i can use it and watch TV! Awesome! But no good shows now...lol. Mainly its not just the pc..its the fact that my parents can't be honest with me...sian. Nevermind lah! Just gotta deal with it..imagine after my EOYs all day can use computer...hohoho. I guess being slightly nudged off the pc also gives me sometime to go out and play soccer...and perhaps i'll hang out even more with my friends...which i don't really do. Cos my friends all just go malls,talk cock, and rot. Nooo i'd rather go somewhere,sit down,grab a drink and just chat about random stuff.

Nvm. One way or another i'll find another way to find a place ...where i can go to..where i can be care free...

What a day today. Very simple one. Got home after school.

I did nothing,but stay on the pc. I was staring at my Math Textbook...but i just couldn't do it.

So it dragged till 6+...before i caught another Asthma Attack! (Shit!) So got my mom to write a letter...skipping NCC again. Or more like being excused from it. Maybe i'll consider visiting SSC to get my pc microphone at Challenger. My last visit to SSC was long time ago this year. And i walked there straight from school. To collect Coca-Cola cans for my Coke Zero Ad. I remember visiting Challenger another time to buy WoW from Challenger..maybe tomorrow i will go to SSC and see what i can find..besides Challenger theres Daiso...hehe worth going right? Its a new place. Pretty nice. But i cannot imagine having to walk back from SSC to the bus stop. Ok,besides that,i was smsing Jamie this evening...she told me she saw Sherman's Mom...haha after that i asked her how she was and stuff...and i told her i didn't have any motivation to study...then she replied to my sms with this line that really made me reflect...

"Then learn. I think,you have to make it a habit ya?"

For those who don't get it,she is telling me to make studying a habit.

Well obviously Jamie is extremely skilled and can do it without switching on the PC...which means she is very,very disciplined. I wanna be like you,mom! (Jamie,LOL) I guess i can try tomorrow? :)

Okay,thats about it.

Gotta hit the sack now!

Tomorrow is a long day...with Art lessons and F&N too!

For those F&N Students who have been struggling to find Ms Peh's Facebook...fret not!

I have found her on Facebook! But i didn't add her. Loool.

Kay,seeya !

Hey guys. Its the 1st week of Term 4. I have around 6 weeks or so.

Exams will be around week 3-5. The exams are important cos its for my promotion to Sec 2.

Failing this means spending 2010 in Secondary 1.

Anyway,was in a Spelling Bee competition this afternoon. The stress really agitated me. All i could was pray...and God helped me! I was given such a easy word!!!

Guess what it was...?

TRANSLATE.

Haha pretty easy! Spelt it out without hesitation. I'm in the Top 15 group alongside Diny. The finals will be next Tuesday. Next Monday is a Public Holiday..thanks to Hari Raya Puasa being on a Sunday. 4 day weekend! Friday+Saturday+Sunday+Monday...shiok lah! haha!

Today had really nothing much. Simple lessons. Very relaxing day in school.

Anyway today was fun. Taught some "New DJ" how to use winamp and so on. Rather ulu TFM...don't know how many people they recruiting. Haha! Okay,gotta zoom off...Someone wants to play around with my pc...tsk tsk!~

JAZLYNN IS AWESOME , SHE IS PURE GENIUS.

Baby,it's been a long time waiting...

Such a long,long time...

And i can't stop smiling...

No i can't stop now...

Do you hear my heart beating?

Can you hear that sound?

Cos' i can't help cryin'

And i won't look down.

If i got this far. I wouldn't have stopped. But i was never a step forward at all. In your eyes,i was just a friend. A friend who would laugh with you over corny jokes. But in my eyes,you are the sweetest thing ever. But i guess i'll never get to say that to you...

When you are at the end of your rope,tie a knot in it and hang on. - Franklin D. Roosevelt

This quote goes out to this buddy of mine. Hey,i know you're having lots of problems right now...you're on the verge of going mad. But hey,i'm there for you man. Whatever you need,be it help or whatever just tell me. I'll do whatever i can. Besides me...theres one man..who will always be there. God. Just pray,laddie. Pray and God will work in many ways.

Hey. Day 3 of the 1 week holiday.

Wasted today again.

Tomorrow shall not be wasted! I am heading down to school to train...soccer. Myself.

Loner.

Lol. Anyway,Will talk about the RP event since Crunchy lady reminded me about it.

It was a Netball tournament. My school netball girls worked hard,but still got pwned.

Tomorrow will train hard. Burn my calories.

Thats all.

Seeya.

Its day 2 of our 1 week holiday.

Well i've been kinda pondering over what has happened over the past 9 months. And between June and August,seems to be the most exciting moment of my life this year.

I was listening to Fix You by Coldplay just now,and some lines from the song just reached out to me...

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want,but not what you need

When you feel so tired,but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste...

Could it be worse?

God has given me everything in life...but i lost alot of them...and i really can't replace it.

And pretty much i do love Jazlynn. I don't know if i can say the love i have is just plain old crap. No use loving her. I won't say that. I really do love her. But sometimes...it just won't work. When she doesn't feel the same,she doesn't. I won't force her. If not she won't be happy. If i have to let her go,i will find it hard to...but i can.

Now,i really ask myself,what have i been doing for the past 9 months...its plainly NATO (No action talk only.) Well i can say : "I've been on the PC all day,never walked the dog and i hardly studied unless tests were coming."

Then i will say : "I must stop this habit. If not,if i continue this way till Secondary 5 i will fail my O levels!"

Its plainly NATO...good i know myself..haha

So time to change and be serious.

I also need to exercise. Getting fatter now. I am trying to lose weight...not to impress girls but to make sure i stay fit. I don't want diabetes or heart problems.

Anyway,short post today. Gotta go.

Seeya.

You only act like you're a "Christian" when you have to.

I can only say you're a hypocrite.

Think you're a very good role model to us? Nah. Being a hypocrite won't teach us anything.

Why do you talk to my sister so nicely.

Why do you talk to your wife so nicely.

If i told you the 2 things you could do to make yourself a better father,i think you'd disagree to it.

Because you and i do not mix. Despite being Father and Son. It does not mix. Why? Because you do not trust me. The more i see you do not trust in me,the more hatred i have for you. You screwed the bond you had with me last year. I thought 2009 would be a fresh start. You are forever the same. Especially when your wife isn't at home. I am going mad. I don't mean angry,kind of mad. I will go mentally insane. Your words are driving me up the wall. Accusing me of lying. Why not just kick me out of the family? Why not just leave me out? I'm not part of your family. I am not being treated like one. I feel like crying. I know,boys shouldn't cry...but. I just...wanna let it out. Why are you being so nice to your wife. Why are you being so nice to your daughter. Why are you not being nice to your son. Maybe,i wasn't your flesh and blood. Perhaps i was adopted,so you really don't give a shit about me. I don't hate you. I love you so much. Because God gave me a father like you. But why do you do this to me...maybe i'm just not being a good son. I wish i could be a better son. If only i was in a good school like HCI or RI...having a great CCA...with so many nice people. You'd be proud,you could go around telling your colleagues i scored high grades for PSLE and got into a good school. But i'm not. I'm in a normal school. I can't pass Math like you did. I can't pass Chinese like you did. I'm different. I'm sorry,i'm just too dumb. I'm not in ACS,neither am i in RI. But i'm making the most of my life. I'm doing something that can bring me further. I just wish you'd see what i do in school. I just wish you'd realise that i'm not in school,hiding in the toilet during lessons. I'm in the classroom doing work with my friends. Maybe ever since PSLE you think i'd never take exams seriously.

I'm not your daughter. I'm not so smart as my sister. I'm never gonna be in an Express class. I can never score A1 for Math. Neither can i score A1 for all subjects. I just wish you could accept me for who i am. I'm your son. And if you can't accept me. Then i'll leave this world.

I really like youuuuuuu

I won't bother bragging about how much i love you...

Cos' its too late. I should have known. I shouldn't have told myself that you were interested in me. Now i'm left with nothing but a hole in my heart. Its fine. Really,it is.

Confessions.

Today was sucha GREAT DAY !!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday started off with some fun. Slept over at Dominic's house. Got some practise with a DSLR. (Credits go to Dominic and his Canon 40D)

I really couldn't sleep. I woke up at 6am,only to find Dominic and Shiro still snoozing away. So i like wasted 1 hour by listening to music and toying with Shiro's PSP. At 7+ i took out the 40D and kept using flash on Shiro,which did wake him up. Dominic woke up later. We showered. Pooped. And got a ride from Shiro's mom ! Went to rot abit before heading for SAG. Seng wasn't here. So we joined Joel and the rest. And SAG happened to do with us confessing our sins to God. How many of us usually do that ? Well rarely. Confessing.

How about confessing your LOVE to a girl ?

I did that too.

Went bowling too with Dominic and Shiro. We had lotsa fun ! Though i was a fat noob at the start...haha soon i started owning Dom and Shiro. Shiro was great,but fell to last...and Dom had 2 strikes,i had 1 only. Which means Dom won...haha. Hopefully we'll have another sleep over,this time at my place ! And perhaps we could go bowling again....hardy har har. Anyway thats all i have for today. Everyone's heading back to work...and school after the weekend. Monday Blues ! And possibly another Common Test 2 for Physics...sad.

Gotta thank GOD for everything he has given me...i've been really blessed.

Thats all for today folks.

Seeya.

Anyone going back to Qihua Primary on Teachers Day ? I don't plan to. LOL.

What is Love ?

I've been feelin' kinda low after whats been happening over the past few days.

I've kinda fallen in love with Lenny's sister. And,i thought it was all puppy love.

I just prayed about it. And i could only ask God,to lead me to somewhere...and he is doing it. I don't feel anymore puppy love. I really do kinda..love her. But,after speaking to her,over the past few days...i don't think she feels the same.

And all my mates have been asking Lenny : "Hey Lenny,where is your sister?" Thats because i keep talking about her...but what will all of that do ? I once told myself,if i dream hard enough,my dreams will come true. I don't believe it that,despite dreaming i'd score goals for my team. And i did. a hat trick to mark off my first three goals. But it doesn't exist anymore. I won't dream about me dating her. Because i know,it just won't be true.

Its not much of a use for me to confess to her now right ?

It just hits me so hard...whenever i think of her,the first thing that comes to my mind is "She doesn't like me."

I don't know what to do.

Did i do something very wrong to irritate my father.

Thank you very much for those sarcastic remarks,dad.

"Please check for the best cinema on the net."

"Since you're the Computer Expert."

"On the PC all the time."

Thank you.

I really hate it.

Thank you so,so much.

Oh great !!!!!!!!!!

Now i ask him WHICH CINEMA DO YOU WANT.

He says ask me reccommend cos i know where they work.

...He is like trying to point the gun back at me.

170th post and US One Dollar.

This is great. My dad had to come in. Asked if the Dell Monitor could still be used. And he had to remove my stuff. And GUESS WHAT??? SOMEONE PUT A UNITED STATES CURRENCY ONE DOLLAR ON THE OLD CPU. ONLY TO HAVE MY DAD ASK ME WHERE DID I GET IT FROM.

LOL...i seriously do not know how that little note got there...weird. i live an extremely screwed up life... but hey !!!! at least i have God. K gonna sleep. Nid early rest man.......meow.

Bye Bye Pencilcase... :(

Hello !

Today was GREAT !!! God has really blessed me throughout the day...really owe it to him.

Anyway,still,bad news !!!! But its all my fault. And partially Yohinee's,i guess.

I guess i left it in F&N class..but nvm lah..i did need new pencils and pens...and also went to buy myself a nice Canterbury bag pack..just to replace my Liverpool one..its slightly smaller..and i think also less durable..but aiya just use it lor..

My dad scolded me for not walking the dog...FINE LAH ! DON'T WALK DOG LA. DON'T GET DSLR. I BUY MYSELF. DON'T GIVE A FRIGGIN SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE WTH MAN . I JUST DIDN'T WALK THE DOG AND IS THAT WHAT YOU DO TO ME. AM I YOUR FRIGGIN DOG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -__________-

My dad said lights out at 10pm.

Its 9.54pm. And he wants me to log off.

WHAT

THE

HELL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????

What is PHOTOGRAPHY ?

I was blog hopping,and i kept looking at the blogger's profiles...it always has the " I LOVE PHOTOGRAPHY "

Having a pro DSLR doesn't make you a lover of photography.

I don't understand why so many teenagers are getting DSLRs for themselves actually...do they even know anything about photography ??? shutter speed ?? aperture ?? I'm sure most of them do..but i find it irritating when those who don't,just get a DSLR,don't know how to use it,and worse don't know how to take care of it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Someone don't know a DIGITAL CABINET is essential for your DSLR. Like that you're wasting the use of a DSLR and wasting your money !

I'm not saying i'm super pro. But i just find it friggin weird !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NDP 2009's theme ownz !

The remix by the MrBrown Show ownz too haha.

Will blog again later tonight.

Lonely.

Well,its rather sad.

My mom and dad are gone for their business trips,for a week.

And when they come home,after a night at home,both of them are off to Tokyo together. For another week.

I just feel so lonely,without my parents at home.

It's not just my parents.

The feeling of loneliness was there all along...

Just gotta pray that God will be that one friend who will be always there with me..

I'm seriously lacking something very important. For Soccer.

Soccer shorts !!!! After the match with the youths..i came home with sore thighs. My arms were okay...my arms are pretty strong,and i could avoid the scratches on my arms because i had tights on. So i need shorts with pads...i won't want to wear pants..hehehe.

Will be joining Andrew (Lee) for Mount Carmel Football Club's match this Sunday..duno versus who..he'll be my coach ! Gonna point out some goalkeeping tips,and also will do warm up with him.

Alright,time to sleep,long day tomorrow.

SEEYA

I hate...

I do not hate,but dislike having dinner at home with my family. Why ?

Because when i'm done,and the rest aren't,i can't leave the dining area.

Just now,i was about to walk off when my father told me to stay...that totally PISSED ME OFF.

I don't usually get angry,cos getting angry is a way of Satan taming me.

Despite knowing that,i was really pissed until they all finished eating.

Why do i have to stay ?

You have said what you wanted already.

Dinner is to eat,not to talk.

I really,really don't get it.

Hell of a week.

Hey guys. It's a been a rough week,but i must say my week has still been blessed by God. I had pineapples and rice dumplings a few days ago for breakfast,only to find out it'd bother my tummy in school. I was sent home due to food poisoning. I visited the toilet at home for a record of 11 times. Lol. I guess i'm okay now. So i went to act brave and took pineapples from the fridge again,and yes,i got the tummyache again. Visited the toilet and i guess i'm fine now.

Tomorrow i'll be testing out the Mercurials once again,along with the Tiempo.

If my mercurials work fine,i'll be training in those for the rest of tomorrow,and also Friday. If it doesn't work,i'll do it with my Tiempos,and for Friday too. When A.C told me about the Youth Vs Adults game,i assumed it was Youth vs the Y.A.M. It seems like its like A.C vs Adrian Wong !!

So it's gonna be testing my fitness. Hehe. Heading to block area to collect my Jersey Pack this Friday. So excited !!!! Gonna play my best as a forward....

Guess thats all for today...today once again has been blessed by the Almighty God !! Such a relaxing day...thank you God !

Nitez. =)

Mighty to save

Hello.

It's been a real good day,3 of my teachers didn't come. I still don't know how long is 1 Period in school,assuming its 45 minutes...so that'd be 45 x 3...which is 135 minutes which would be 2 hours and and 15 minutes. School ends at 2.15,and starts at 7.40. Rounding it off to 8am. So...i spend exactly 6 hours and 35 minutes in school. Which means 2 hours 15 minutes minus 6 hours and 35 minutes is equals to....duno. Need to convert all to minutes. Too lazy. But i have lost around 2-3 hours. Mr Zaf,Ms Selvi and Ms Pang/Phang didn't come to school...so yeah pretty relaxed.

Tomorrow i'm gonna be training again with the mercurials. I will train at 1 side where no one will spot me. I will bring my own cones so i can do it myself. I spoke to Danielle just now...not Aunt Lorna's daughter. Another Danielle. Then she asked me to read her blog...her recent post. Kinda emotional. So i joked and said "I don't care!" I think she got kinda upset and just hung up on the phone. Nevermind...want to be like this then be like this lorrrrrrr. Today during Math,i was like calling Yohinee's name a thousand times when Gurpreet just turned around and asked me to shut up. That just boiled my blood man...but i kinda chilled after awhile...some people do horrible things but they don't realise it hurts someone...perhaps they always do it ? So never take your friends for granted ! Scold them doesn't mean it turns out your way ! But i have nothing against Gurpreet..Forgive and Forget. There is gonna be another game this coming Saturday at Lian Hua ! This time i won't go to the wrong place >:) I wanna show them i can do it ! Ian and Sherman told me that they will most likely put me in the front because they are scared of the new blood joining defence...fine lor...I play forward end up super pro MUAHAHAHA then i shall be placed as a permanent forward.

Alright,i'm gonna grab a bowl of cereal. Nitez! :)

I'm back ! Well,i was going to test out my boots in school,when the Secondary 2 boys had to just destroy it. When i was about to go train myself,one idiot went to take my soccer ball. But i left it with them because it was definitely time for that ball to be exploding some time. It was really old and i didn't like the outside,it was hard to aim. The Mercurials i was testing out,didn't seem to work very well. Yes i could sprint way faster but certain aspects of the game like Agility,Accuracy and also Reaction time wasn't there. So i have come to a conclusion,that should you consider buying a pair of Nike Mercurial IV Boots,think again ! Speed may be an advantage,but imagine sprinting so quickly to the goal post,then you do a step over to fool the goalkeeper on a 1-on-1. You have an open goal. You quickly just nudge the ball with your laces (Its covered) Instead of it going straight it curls and hits the fans behind the goal post. Ouch. Imagine if that happened in the EPL. Poor player. So,maybe if you're a big fan of Nike and would only like to wear Nike Boots,perhaps you could try the Nike T90 Laser II ? Its the boots players like Fernando Torres,Wayne Rooney,Pablo Zabaleta and more wear. Its good because they boot features the "shoot with your laces" area. Maybe you can consider the Nike Tiempo ? Somehow i find the Nike Tiempo the best pair of boots ever made by Nike. The touch from the Tiempo boots are good and its really nice to wear. I've never seen a defender wear Nike Tiempos. I only see defenders wearing Adidas boots. Now we come to the next brand,Adidas. Adidas' f50i in Singapore is selling really quick,some stores are only left with like sizes like US 6-1/2. They don't have the basic adult sizes like US 9 anymore. All sold out. Adidas' boots may be better as they suit players who are wide-footed,like me. But the Tiempo can too. Mercurials,i'm not too sure,i did have alot of pain on my foot with the Mercurials on this afternoon. It was really a torture. You can also stay with the Adidas Predator series of boots,i was at Weston Corporation,and i saw they have this new Adidas Predator boots,with a special design,representing the World Cup in South Africa which will be on next year,in 2010.

I also had the time to chat with Aaron Chong. I really feel he is being bullied by his friends in Church. Poor thing. Was talking to him about my boots and the Mount Carmel Football Team. Apparently they do need defenders ! Mark Choo plays a Right Back while Keith Wong is a Cente Back. Which means,if their basic formation is 4-4-2,that leaves 2 more defenders to finish up the line,left back Mattheus has a broken leg so he will be out for awhile. Who is the other centre back ? Well if i'm a permanent defender i should be listed as a Full Back. I've experienced playing a Right Back and a Centre Back,but never a Left Back. So...i guess the game which is in 2 games,i'll try a Left Back. I'm ok with Left Mid but Left Back may be a problem,especially when theres defending. Guess all i have to do is train,i'll be training with my Tiempo for the remaining 2 weeks,i may try out my Mercurials time to time,but i am afraid the pain will come back. We'll see. I now have to complete at least HALF of Aunt Lorna's Work. Actually abit is already completed. Then i'll finish it up in tomorrow's Free Period (English) Ms Selvi has been absent for over 2 weeks,if again this whole week she won't be in school,then that'll be 3 weeks. Almost a month. Thats all for today folks.

Seeya.

What a day !

Today has been particularly annoying yet fun.

Started off by heading for Aunt Lorna's tuition.

It was good,full of jokes. After that i met my dad for lunch,where the horrible part starting to happen...well my sister told me the soccer game would be at Nan Hua Primary. I went there...it was like sooooooooo quiet. So i waited for awhile. I went to check out the field,and guess what ? The field doesn't even have a GOAL POST !!!! Whaaaaaaaaaaat only !! Then i waited..waited...smsed my sis..asked her is she sure it is Nan Hua..then she smsed Sherman and he said it was LIAN HUA !!!! Then i just packed and went home,disappointed. Really. Its like my biggest wish being crushed right infront of me...then i just switched off my hp and took 963 home..emo. Got home,and just chatted with Jodi...really need to thank her. She comforted me,and i felt better after that. Then i had dinner by myself and watched South Park again...haha.

Well my dad has offered me a deal to get my Canon 450D before the December holidays,heres the uber hard to do deal.

Save as much as i can from now till end of year,and also have to *PASS* all subjects,which then that will get me my Canon DSLR 450D.

I was actually planning to get "married" with my Canon DSLR 450D in February or June 2010. But after Dominic told me the promotions wouldn't last...i made sure i had to get it during the promotion.

I think passing all my subjects wouldn't be a problem,but i have to work hard for my Math and Chinese. What i'm learning now in Math,i can handle it,but my Chinese teacher can't seem to control the class,and she keeps attempting to keep the class quiet,so she then wastes time for us to learn ! Guess i have to do it by myself.

Guess thats all for today,hope for a better day tomorrow.

Its bennett's birthday tomorrow...TEEHEE.

How does it feel,to be rejected ?

You worked so hard,to bring that brave feeling out of you,just to step up to the girl,but it all goes to waste,when she just says "No,I'm Sorry."

Or how would it feel,if your friends just stopped talking to you ?

Wouldn't you feel dejected ?

Seeing your friends somewhere else,just having so much fun,without you with them ?

So which one happens more,rejected or dejected ?

I guess some of us would be kinda emotional from getting rejected.

But the thing is,being a 13 year old,doesn't mean i'm super mature. I still won't understand some things.

Like Love.

Well i'm not saying I got rejected...Nah i have better things to do.

But i just wonder why some are so emotional when they get rejected...

Feeling dejected in school is pretty common.

Because your friends would purposely leave you alone and just suddenly stop talking to you...

Anyway,

Yesterday night,i think i owe everything to God for what happened.

I was done praying...when my sister suddenly came knocking on my door.

She told me Mark (Choo) invited me to join them for a game tomorrow...

I got really excited,i could finally prove myself to some of the guys that i wasn't as lousy as before. So just now i went to train with my mercurial...and it was good. So i guess tomorrow i can play better. After the game i'll see if i can go to church to help out the SFG guys..heard their cleaning the Youth Room..sad.

Guess thats all for today,off to finish up corrections..from Aunt Lorna lor..at least i do some lah later she angry i never do all ... :(

Seeya.

Departures

What really makes a blog ?

Could it be tagboards,the music players,or the blogger's "words of wisdom?"

A blog can definitely do without the fancy tagboards and the rock music blasting from your online music player. A blog is meant for the blogger to just express how he or she feels.

Thats why i don't understand why when i don't link some people...you get all pissed with me.

So here's the plainest design. No tags,no music,no links.

Anyway,a few days ago,my whole family watched a Japanese movie at home..its called Departures,i think. Can go google it.

Quite nice.

And the theme song is good too.

Besides that,i also started playing Dota...yeah kinda started late but its fun..abit challenging though.

Haha this is the theme song of the movie ! Do listen to it...makes you feel relaxed.. :)

Thats all guys,will post again ! Seeya.

Noooooooooooo

You know what,the DSLR i was aiming for..is on promo. And Dominic told me just now the promo would end on 2nd August. I'm on the verge of breaking down. And he said the New Year's promo would end on Feb 15. That is no where near my plans. I planned to ask my parents for the DSLR on my birthday,23rd February. If not,i'll get it before June's Church Camp.

But its totally gone.

And without the promo,the camera price,along without needed items..the price will go boom.

I'm really lost.

I don't know what to do...but i just wonder if my parents really know i love photography alot...and the Canon DSLR 450D would do me some good....

Blogging like a girl.

Hi.
Today was ok-ok. Came home,within an hour i left the house again...went to exercise with Mom and Dad at Fort Canning Park...then when we were walking..i talked about my class outing..my mom said we could have like an "Amazing Race" at the Fort Canning Park since it has to do with History...which was good...so yeah think i'm gonna do it.



Anyway,overall ... day was good.

G2g,i'm really shagged. Waking up tomorrow to touch up on my homework.
Seeya.

Today was good,started school..yay.

Anyway fast forward to on my way home just a few minutes ago from Fuchun Community Club.
I was going home,when i saw this "lady" walking towards me...when i looked closer at the face...wah the lady actually looks like a man !!!!!!!!!!!!! Walk the body also sway so much..confirm duno how to walk like a REAL woman ! (Actually i duno how a "real" woman walks like too :P)
When i walked past the lady,i just suddenly felt a sudden chill down my spine...i got so freaked out i was like semi jogging to the MRT station. :/


Anyway,thats how my day went. Hehehe. Seeya all !

Some of my church friends said they found my blog...but they also said i don't update my blog very often.
Er,i'll try k.
I'll try to update my blog as regularly as i can.

Seeya.

HEHEHE.


I won't post up the pole dancing pose i did..later all think i'm a gay. :S


Seeya !

Wow.

This is a picture from Church camp. Nice right ? Heres the story.
All the youth,male and female,had to write their name on a piece of paper.
Then we all folded the paper and put it into each cup for each gender. Then the cup was passed around the boys so we got different names. And we got to pray to God,for the name we got,God would tell us,what we should sketch,or which ever came to mind first. I got Dominic. So i drew a scenery and a big camera,because Dom really likes photography. I don't have the drawing now because Dominic took it home. But above,is what Mark Lin drew for me. He got my name ! Cool right ?
And...he drew a flower because he said i was cheerful,always smiling and made people laugh.
On the flower is a smiley face,and under the flower you see a few words right ?
I'll type it out incase you can't see it.
"This sunflower represents how you are always cheerful,bright and friendly. Always making everyone smile."
So yeah,i'm pretty touched XD
Thanks Mark !

Back from Batam !

Hello !
Yes,i'm back from Batam...its been a really tiring trip...especially for some like Uncle Leong Ho and Evelyn...Evelyn was totally asleep during the ferry ride back...haha so yeah..enjoyed the talk by Pastor Jabez.
And yeah,i made alot of friends not just in the Youth section,but also some of the adults,like Uncle John and others...so yup.
This being my first church camp,i never expected so much from it. It has totally transformed me,it has changed my life not just spiritually,but how i live it.
So yeah..i'll try to provide you guys with the pictures as soon as possible ! I was Dominic's model for his photo taking. :P

So...i'm really shagged,wanna sleep early before heading out for church tomorrow,seeya.
Edit : Oh Ya hor ! I got EYE CANDY !!!!! YESSSSSSS veli pretty leh...but 5 years my senior. :(
My sis said it was a good choice though.
:S

:(

K Soz. Haven't updated in awhile.
Holidays have been great,and well having seen the Recession worsen,along with the recent H1N1 Influenza being declared a Pandemic. Its frightening. I have somethings to talk about.
1.World getting hotter,idiots still buying Air Cons.
2. How's my week been.
3. Whats going on currently in my life.
4. "I have balls" field trip.

1.
Well,i recently saw a report on The Straits Times,stating that the world's temperature could increase,and well people are buying more air conditioners..wouldn't that cause EVEN MORE heat ? global warming mah !!! so dun be dumb. go buy the rotan fan from the daiso store or the mama shop k.
2.
My week's been great,i've returned to DJ-ing,and i'm happy with the site i'm current with,week's been boring too though. XD Went to freak myself out at Fort Canning Park and the Battle Box,also at Fort Canning Park.

3.
Life's been great,but i think i'm gaining alot of weight,so i think i'm gonna start running. :)

4.
Today,i took the chance. I went to the most feared place,by me.
The BATTLE BOX at Fort Canning Park. K yes i know i'm Gay k. I'm scared of that place.. :S Cos i thought the battle box..many people got killed so im freaked out later got hantu..hahahahahah.
So yeah,i went alone ! But i had the company of the Guide,and 2 Australian tourists. I'm happy with myself. Conquered another fear !


Anyway,i've stopped Soccer,i plan to take up running. (Like my Sis and Dad.)
If i train hard enough,i'll take up the 10km for next year's Standard Chartered Marathon.

Also,i'll be leaving for Batam,this coming week. I'll be gone from the 17th - 20th June. Well,i told my sis and parents after the Sermon and all that church related thing is done i'll walk straight back to the hotel room and just rot over there. Its not that i have some kind grudge against the Youths. Its just...i don't want to mix around when its this kind of camp. Anyway,i'd love to hit the sack early,then i'll be able to go out and run early.

And...remember,i popped the question up to her 5 times , and she said no to all ?
Yes,i felt lots and lots of pain. But i'm still young. She asked me the question a few days. And...
I find it weird. After so much pain,then she asks me the question. :S

Guess thats all for today. Gotta link up some people. Seeya !

Yeah..its the new pair of shoes i got..from this flea market. Brand is Lacoste sia ! I think its 2nd hand. Definitely Original ! Bought it for a cheap $39...XD Can wear for school shoes leh.

Today,i headed out to the art museum with Esah,to view a few paintings. Tomorrow,he's bringing his friends to come along with me..we're going to Sentosa for sight seeing. WOO !

Thats all i have for today.

Seeya. XD

Words that leave scars ?

Today was ok. Went to get myself a lil' bag...$15. Then met my dad and sis for NATM 2. It was ok. Didn't make me laugh at all though. Just now was in a lil conversation with guru and diny..made a random statement and guru asked me to get lost >:( I was like...kay then i left the conv lor. Aiya no big deal. Just forget about it. Guru is the carefree type man. Its only when you provoke her she evolves into a nasty pokemon..the random statement i made was about me lor ! -_- Diny's leaving for Darwin tomorrow...don't mean to upset you Diny but i heard Darwin is a rather "ulu" place. I also heard there are many crocodiles ! XD Go get some croc meat...halal ah !!! "Couple charged with sedition"
"A Christian Singaporean couple are in trouble for spreading anti-Muslim publications."
This is what i saw on Yahoo Singapore news. Hmm...i think i am lucky that Singapore is a "free" country. Its good that Singapore has different races and religion,so we can learn about each other's culture...But i think the couple has gone really far. Fine,if you don't like this and that,just keep it to yourself. Don't spread it ... or you'll get yourself into trouble. Talking about Religions...i was wondering how food is declared Halal ? Do they put it through a factory system ? Hmmm...
Tomorrow,it'll be back to Auntie Lorna's tuition...Kay. Hope everything runs smoothly. Gonna hit the sack ! Seeya !


I'll forever feel it...

Lalalala.

Today was another boring day !!! No CIP...hohoho. Came home,switched on my pc,and well i really didn't have anything to do. At home i had no one to talk to except for the maid and my lil dog. So i was like...what am i gonna do? So i'm like slacking..haiz. Smsed auntie lorna,asking her when i could come over for lessons..no reply yet. Well tomorrow,i'll be heading out after school to finalise the class t-shirt,after that i'll move to City Hall to get my bag...and then i'll move again to Somerset to meet my dad and sis for dinner,then a movie. After that..it'll be holidays. Plan to go exercise loads to lose some weight. Kay. Think thats all i have for today.
Seeya.



When will the feeling of loneliness leave me ?

What a day.

Today was like..no school day ? Had a field trip to Labrador Park...was fun. Our guide so pretty leh !! But ahem ! I am a new man. No more ogling. That skill has somehow been eliminated from my skills list. XD Got back,went to McDonalds with Thomas,Jasper and Sarah. Watched all of them eat...before we went to walk around...i tried to slide downwards on the railing at the entrance of Sun Plaza...end up i almost slipped off...LOL. Hahaha. After that i went home..blahblahblahblah. Came home,then my parents came home. As usual,Wednesday is our..Dinner Night. A night where all must eat together...this is the worst day lor ! I must hold my hunger until everyone comes home...Nothing to blog about.
Unsatisfied with my results.
Hope to do better next term.

Seeya.

CAMP FEAST

Hey man. I'm back from Camp ! Camp was really fun,i thought Leftenant Kang was a really good officer...he really helped us through tough stations like the High Elements and stuff. I was I/C for my platoon...so i thought being I/C was fun. And i tried my best to really help all over,especially during breaks ... where we had food...the platoons couldn't seem to dump their food properly into the bags...so i took tissue and picked up the food for all platoons..haha. I'm not doing all that just for a CLT to come up to me and say , "Good Job" I'm doing it to show my other platoon mates,what they can to do to help their platoon. Then just now...Major Oliver came up and was like "Your name is Andre?" Then he said i was a good role model for my platoon blahblahblahblah..then suddenly my whole platoon said i had the attitude of an officer ? Huh. Well thanks for the compliments,but there are other areas i can work on of course. On to the best part in the camp,the Flying Fox. Well,when i got up...i was like .. kay gonna jump. Then i got less worried after she asked me to sit at the edge...then when i got off..i literally plunged downwards before going forward...then of course,Aizuddin was next to me..both of us were like..holy f**k. I was holding on to my harness until the lady said hands off. Then i took my hands off...and of course fearless la..so i started dancing LOL. Yeah..i did the 80s retro kind of dance..before doing the Drogba goal celebration XD. Yeah alot of the guys who came down were like friggin scare..all holding on to their harness...some hands off but not daring enough to move arms..hahaha. Its ok ! We have next year to try it out. Besides that,i made quite a number of friends from other schools. My platoon was actually quite good,except for this one guy from Canberra. Super slow !!!!!
Kay. Thats all i think. I really miss Platoon 2 and Leftenant Kang. Hope to see them again next year !.


Seeya.

Bye.

Gonna be gone from 25-26th May.
NCC Camp.
Sorry guys,don't try sms-ing me.
I'm not bringing my handphone along. :)
Seeya.

Remember the blister i got from playing barefoot at the street soccer court ? Yep thats it. Gross isn't it. HAHA.

No topic.

Today was ok. Sent my sis to OBS Camp at East Coast,went to Lau Pa Sat Or issit Lau Pat Sat ? For Dinner...stupid rice la..i buy i thought nice nice end up i got tummy ache.. :(
Tomorrow there'll be dinner with uncle alfred..uh oh. Better finish packing before i go for the dinner ! XD

I'll be gone from Monday to Tuesday.
I'll be in NCC Camp. XD


Seeya.

Now you wished you meant something to somebody else.

Man,its already the weekend. Its another week before the June Holidays start. For me it'll be 4 days,cos on the first 2 days of the week...NCC Boys have CAMP FEAST !!! Then after that come back on Wednesday .. school is sending us to what ah...erm...Labrador Park for a educational trip..yay :P Anyway,today i really don't know what we're gonna do. Tomorrow i think there's dinner with uncle alfred...well i gotta start packing for camp man. Cya.

So now you're running
It's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
You're stuck in the past

And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me?
I've treated you badly
But I am still here

Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
That's how you make me
Sometimes I question
Why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I am going crazy

Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
(Something to somebody else 2x)

You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind
We've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy

Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait (I would wait)

You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else, something to somebody else.


Escape The Fate - Something

Hm

When i see someone type on their blog , "I love Jesus."
I feel kinda insulted. Because...you can tell as many people as you want, I love Jesus,but whats in your heart ? Do you really love him ? Or are you just going around,telling people you love Jesus ? Going for Cell Groups or just going for Church,doesn't make you a Christian. It is a matter of letting yourself,totally rely on your friend,Jesus.


Being a Christian,isn't just going to church,singing songs and praying for the sake of doing so.
Its to communicate with Jesus.

Bored.

Hey man. New Skin. Thanks to Diny. XD Well today was a really boring day . School was really boring,the fire starter (Diny) didn't come to school ! Ya...Meiqi and Gurpreet also didn't come...i think they all thought they could give school a skip cos exams are over. No way man ! Well i actually got a preview at my marks..Math especially. I was estatic towards getting my Math results..though i'm really unhappy. The marks i got...was like what i used to get in P6...not U Grade la. Slightly better. And i know why i dropped !
1.No revision. Well,not enough.
2.No discipline
3.Hardly listened in Class.
4.I haven't been going for Aunt Lorna's tuition (?)

Well...i think point 1,2,3 is definitely true. So i need to pay more attention like what i did in Term 1..which got me an A1 ! Yup...and Miss Tan told me i have A1 Calibre !!! WOAHHHHHHHHH Aunt Lorna too. So i'm planning to work even harder towards Term 3,i have realised my mistake . :( Erm...4 i duno actually. Its true though,i haven't been going for Aunt Lorna's tuition. I have yet to contact her to arrange a date for me to come. I actually hate going for the next lesson..she'll start talking to me about not going for her lessons and stuff. Oh well. I think it'd be great for me to attend her lessons during the June Holidays,its also a good thing to occupy my time. Because i'm really clueless on what to do during the June Holidays. Besides some extra work,tuition..what else? Maybe i'd catch up on some soccer ? Invite my friends to me place to play Guitar Hero ? I don't know. We'll see. Well,i have yet to get my English,Physics and..can't remember. I got a peek at Math,Chinese and Chemistry. I think i'm satisfied with my Chemistry marks, 35 1/2 / 50. Good enough for you ? I almost passed Chinese !!!!!!!!!! 41 !!! :( You see,in Term 1 i got 26,Middle of Term 1 and term 2 i got 35. Now i'm at 41 !!! How much higher can i go !!! So i have to really pledge myself to change my attitude in Chinese class,and also work towards my goal. Quite pissed though,i got a U-Grade for 41 !!! Impossible !
Math...i wouldn't like to mention it,its really bad. I'm abit worried for my Physics marks though,Mr Gwee is a really nice teacher,but at times i don't understand at all ! Even if he explains again..i won't get it. :/ There are many other formulas. Especially when you need a calculator for Physics ! My worst nightmare.
Kay,lets move on.
I wonder how's QPS doing ? How's Mrs Karthi doing with her P6 class ? And is Mdm Chong still getting bothered by Eugene ? Hahahaha. Mdm Chong told Mrs Karthi about my coke ad...and told me to send the link to her email...i don't know her email. I thought MOE Teacher email should always be kept confidential...hahaha.
Kay,thats all.
Seeya.

Nahnahanah.

Sup. Today was good,MYE has ended. Usually once examinations end i'd be like ALRIGHT LETS GO PLAY ! But i still feel the same old dull andre,i feel like theres another paper tomorrow. LOL. After school,went home,and met up with Che Hui,Sarah,Fatihah and Shahila where we then head off to Chong Pang to meet Diny and search for our class tee. Unfortunately the only one who knew where the store was Yohinee,but she didn't come. Aw. So we skipped that,and we head off to the store at Ang Mo Kio. When we got there,we found out that Che Hui's mom was working in the store we were looking for ! I was damn shocked. Haha. Then we asked some questions..and told them we'd be back. So i told the rest don't bother going to Penin. Haha. Anyway,i don't think i'd want to ever invite Shahila to come out with us again,she is giving me alot of attitude problems.
Next Monday and Tuesday,i'll be away for Camp FEAST. Yes,i chose that i should go...cos.
The only easy day, was yesterday.
AND WHO CARES IF OFFICERS SHOUT AT ME ! I'm a man ! Lets go and have some fun..the Sec 2s told me the food from the HQ is damn nice...oolala. Yep,gonna be there by 7.15am at the Foyer in School. Reporting in No.4 XD Day before that is a dinner with Uncle Alfred..walao ! So suay. XD Kk anyway,gotta go.
Cya.

Quiz

Tagged to do this quiz. Seriously i think its a waste of time,but naaaaaaaaaah i'll do it for Diny's sake. keke.

THE 100 QUESTIONNS . ;D
01. Real name - Andre Kang ? Kang Andre ?
02. Nickname(s)- Ribery :P
o3. Star sign - Pisces
04. Male or female - Male
05. Elementary - Er...
06. Middle School - Qihua Primary
07. High School - Sembawang Secondary
08. Hair color - Black
09. Long or short hair- Short
010. Loud or Quiet - BOTH !
011. Sweats or Jeans - Jeans
012. Phone or Camera - Camera
013. Fruits or fried foods- Fruits
014. Drink or Smoke? - Drink
015. Do you have a crush on someone? - Yesss :(
016. Eat or Drink - Drink
017. Piercings - None.
018. Tattoos - Well..its down there..don't think you want to peep at all. :P just kidding.
019. Been in an airplane - Yes
020. Been in a relationship - Yes..er maybe no.
021. Been in a car accident - Never !
022. Been in a first fight - Well...i don't think i have.
FIRSTS:
023. First piercing - I don't pierce. I'm not C.Ronaldo
024. First best friend - Farhan (QPS)
025. First award - $50 cheque from some kind of community cos of my good studies..chey.
026. First crush - Forgot,i have too many.
027. First fashion sense - Ever since i started watching football matches .
028. First vacation - Malaysia ?
LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to - Dog
030. Last person you texted - Afifah (Not from SMB ah)
031. Last person(s) you watched a movie with - Myself.
032. Last food you ate - Fish..rice..vegetables..erm..can't remember.
033. Last movie you watched - Duno.
034. Last song you listened to - Letto - Ruang Rindu
035. Last thing you bought - Bottle of 100 Plus.
036. Last person you hugged- Forgot.
SariFAVES:
037. Food - Salad with some grilled chicken would be good.
038. Drinks - 100 Plus,Coke Zero.
039. Clothing - Jersey top,kaki pants or jeans.
040. Books - Er..hmm duno i dont read.
041. Musics - Ruang Rindu
042. Flower - Rose
043. Colours - Black and White,yes i know i'm dull.
044. Movies - Duno.
045. Positions - Student.
IN 2008..... I
047. [ ] Kissed in the snow
048. [] celebrated Halloween
049. [x] had your heart broken
050. [] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [] came out of the closet
053. [] gotten pregnant
054. [] had an abortion
055. [x] done something you've regretted
056. [x] broke a promise
057. [x] hid a secret
058. [x] pretended to be happy
059. [] met someone who changed your life
060. [x] pretended to be sick
061. [] left the country
062. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
063. [] cried over the silliest thing
064. [] ran a mile
065. []went to the beach with your best friend(s)
066. [] stayed single the whole year
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating - Nothing
068. Drinking - Nothing
069. I'm about to - Play FM with Dzahir and crew.
070. Listening to - Jackie Presti - Love Theme
071. Plans for today - duno.
072. Waiting for - The girl to accept me. LOL.
073. Want kids ? - No kids,Aliens will do.
074. Want to get married? - Suppose so.
075. Careers in mind - I'd love to work in a hotel...
076. Lips or eyes - Eyes
077. Shorter or taller ? - doesnt matter
078. Romantic or spontaneous - Romantic
079. Nice stomach or nice arms - Both
080. Sensitive or loud - Both
081. Hook-up or relationship - Hook the prawns man,hook the prawns.
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant - Trouble-maker
083. Lost glasses/contacts → No.
084. Ran away from home → Is running down to buy a drink without permission considered as running away ?
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → Knife is used for chopping meat,gun .. i have no license.
086. Killed somebody → No.
087. Broken someone's heart → Yes
088. Been arrested → No.
o89. Cried when someone died → No one has died yet.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself - Dumb question.
091. Miracles - Of course.
092. Love at first sight - Yes.
093. Heaven - Duno.
094. Santa Claus - Unfortunately its just a man wearing a fake beard and wearing a stupid fur suit. Man,its hot in Singapore,you know ?
095. Sex on the first date - Yuck !
096. Kiss on the first date - Fine with me.
DANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - Yes.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? - Yes.
099. Do you believe in God - Yes.
100. This is the 100th and last. - This is a total waste of my time.
Seeya.

Noob.

Sup. Had Chem and Physics paper,along with MT Paper,i guess it was okay,Physics was surprisingly rather simple ! MT was crappy,couldn't understand a word,so resorted to my old plan B way of doing the paper. Finished up,took MRT to Woodlands with Che Hui...Somehow Che Hui will always go buy the pancake from Prima Deli...lol. After that,got home. And i just stared at the sky for awhile...then i dozed off,i think. LOL. Imagine if i look at a pretty girl...then halfway i doze off..man i hope if that happens the girl won't get offended. Tomorrow's the last paper of the MYEs. Math paper 2. Its a great way to end off the MYE. Anyway,i got the form for NCC's Camp FEAST...form says its mandatory...but i'm really reluctant on going. Its on next week from Mon-Tues. Which means i miss 2 days of school,attire is No.4 . Ouch. Imagine me wearing my gutters for 1 whole day ! That'll leave my legs with permanent markings of the tight gutters. :/ We'll see anyway. Thomas is excited about it..i'm not. Tomorrow,i'll also be meeting Diny and friends to go hunting for our class tee shirt. We meet at the rendezvous point,first is this shop in Chong Pang,someone knows,i think its Yohinee. Next RZ point would be Ang Mo Kio,this one has Sarah. Final RZ point will be Peninsula/Peninsular...My fav champion sports is there,so is Weston corp and some other jersey stores,we'll check it out before planning things. Meeting them at 12,school ends at 10. Get home by 11 ? Shower,pack my bag and i'm off to the library to rest,meet Che Hui,and then we'll move to our meeting point. Yi Hon has been begging me to come along,but i've been giving him excuses like "What benefit will we get ?" Actually,i wanted to say "No,look at how much trouble you can create." Same for Thomas,i don't want reckless people making noise or trouble for us. I wouldn't have to go with the group,but since i'm Chairperson,i've been put incharge of this...so...they do need me xP. Anyway,after that theres Class Outing. Yes the class has been bothering me. I've been targetting Sembawang Park,but i heard there are no BBQ pits and there are Pontianaks ? Right,lol. We'll see. East Coast is a nono. Abit too far,especially when many of my classmates are under F.A . I was thinking of posting up Udaya's flirtacious photos i took during our RHD Video shoot,it has Santiana and Maisarah in...so i think better not.
Kay,seeya.

Hmm

Kay. Tomorrow's Chem and Physics examination,along with Math Paper 2 ? Oh dear. Hope i do well. Today was ok,did role play..my team scored the highest ! And apparently we scored the highest because Ms Selvi said i acted...well not acted well..but as in i actually acted as 2 characters,as Gurpreet didn't come to school. Oh dear. When i called her after school she did sound abit..um..sick. So i just told her to take care of herself and i hung up. Went home with Che Hui and Yohinee. I smsed Yohinee asking for NY's number...still can ask for what.. -__- harlo just give me the number. Yep..bought the calculator i needed for Physics and Math paper.. $21.40 !!! Do you know how much is cut off from my allowance just because of a stupid calculator ! My mom asked where i got the cash to buy it..i said allowance. Then she asked if i needed more cash..i was like,nah. Cos tomorrow and Wednesday theres like no lessons...just exams. So i wouldn't bother eating..maybe a light snack would do. Biscuits at the snack store cost me 30 cents ...shouldn't be much of a problem. Putting some cash aside for Church anyway. Anyway,i really can't wait for dinner with Uncle Alfred,no i'm not wanting ogle at girls again. I think it'd be a good time for me to rest...While they're all eating i can just relax...


I keep waiting for the phone to ring
Yet I know it won't be you;
I try to fill my life with busyness
Yet all I do is think of you.

Seeya.