I miss you.

I miss all the little things,
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me,
Yeah, I miss you,
And I wish you were here.

I'm sorry,Jaz.

I will be taking a bloody long break from blogging.

I'll only return when i think i am really ready to.

Woken up yet?

No.

Take a breath,
Hold it in

It is over.

Jazlynn,

I cut off all connections i have with you.

Facebook,MSN,Handphones and even some notes i wrote for you just that i never sent it to you.

Right now,you'd either be..."What the f**k?"

Or "Right,whatever! I don't need you too!"

Yes. That could be it.

But think again...i saw you as a friend. I saw you as someone i could turn to. Someone i WOULD LOVE TO BE WITH ALL MY LIFE.

But you didn't feel the same.

Your brother told me everything.

It isn't his fault.

I asked for it.

I wasted my own time.

I hurt myself.

I won't ever get near you.

But i'll remember you.

You always have a spot in my heart yeah.

You can forget me,but i won't.

See you! If we ever do bump into each other at Wheelock or something :)

I imagined this little thing as a Mountain.

I wanted to climb this Mountain and reach the peak. Because i knew at the peak i could be with the person i love.

I never thought halfway through this climb i thought it was just a waste of time.

I chose not to believe my friends. I denied them again and again,i told them it was NOT ONE SIDED LOVE AT ALL.

I guess it was.

People have many ways of expressing love. I'm sure you felt it. You just didn't care. What do i have to do to make you care?

All i can say now is.

Goodbye.

Yeah today was good.

I'd like to share something i said in DCG today.

The boys were supposed to share their personal experience where they were afraid,and the first thing they did was to Pray.

This was what i said.

There was once i wanted to do something for my friend's birthday. I did it,but on my way home i just wondered would she like it? What if it doesn't turn out well? This went on till 10+ until i revealed the "gift" to her. It went smoothly. But it could have only gone this way because i prayed to God. I prayed to God and after that i could tell myself that God is with me. I have nothing to be afraid of or be nervous. Because i have God.

And well thats one...

And yeah i'm still thinking about her.

I do still have my doubts.

These doubts are soon making me think the wrong way. I am thinking in such a way where i have no chance at all...

Yeah,i am always thinking,is she just talking to me to make me happy? Is she just faking it? I don't know. If i did know,i wouldn't be here anymore. I'll wait. =)

But i do know that what i plan to do is very,very risky. I know its sort of a "gamble."

And if i fail with this little plan of me,i'll definitely be scarred for life.

All i can do is pray...and leave it to God.

He will help me.

My plans bring us all the way to 2010. Even further,i guess.

Now comes the hard part...what if she doesn't feel the same way?

Most likely you all would be like "its another doubt."

Yes it is,but its very,very different. If she doesn't feel the same way at all...i really don't know what to do or say.

I have yet to get the best out of me.

It doesn't really matter,how long i have to make you love me.

I'll work hard.

And...everyone that knows what situation i am right now,said that what i'm doing for you is a waste of time and money. They always tell me there are many other fishes out in the sea.

But you're the special one.

If i get so far,but yet i still fail to make you love me...then i will just let it be.

My plans drag you and me all the way to 2010. But i'm willing to wait.

Because.

I love you. :)

Hey guys,sorry for not updating. My EOYs just ended,and basically for the next 2 weeks,or 1 week,my school has squeezed in some activities to keep us occupied. On Tuesday i have this NCC thing...seems fun i duno. On Wednesday i think i have some games...i think i'm doing Photography again. Haha! I don't know about the rest. But i do know on the 29th of Oct,a few schools are coming down to SMB and i'm in the team for Mediacomm...

So yeah,its gonna be a busy week.

Tomorrow's Deepavali!

Heading down to Yohinee's place...hehehehehe.

Sunday,heading down early to West Coast Park Beach to just...take some photos. Emo for awhile. I donno.

And it'll be back to school...again.

Seeya. :)

You'll never see me again.

And i'll never see you too.

Promise.

Sometimes when pieces of a puzzle don't match. Just keep looking. Keep looking. You'll find it.

The most painful part of my body is...

My Heart.

What day it has been!!!!

Awesome day.

Art Lesson was the best!

Sat in with Gurpreet,our assignment was to draw 3 expressions from our partner's faces...and yes my partner was Gurpreet...so...i kinda struggled to draw her face cos of her fringe...sigh.

Haha! And it looked awful!!! If only i got pictures of it! Too bad i didn't...

I must say Jin Yuan did a good job with Henry! XD

The day was very simple,had a lecture done by Mr Zaf during Math lesson..i think he really told us the truth. We are passive learners. We memorise,instead of the correct way. (Understanding.)

Time to "wake up my idea" and start moving.

Besides that,Jazlynn gave me a call...but i didn't pick it up. Sorry,was having dinner. Called back. Nothing. Smsed. And she called again! I thought it was some random call until she asked me "Is your sister in Dance Arts?" blahblahblah all questions and all. Haha! Yeah,i'm bringing my camera tomorrow,to snap a few photos of the boys playing street soccer,and also to do this little..retarded idea of mine. I will take pictures of people's faces,with different expressions...and pile them all up. Man! Its gonna be damn retarded XD

Tomorrow is Jazlynn's birthday.

=)

I sure do remember. Haha!

Gotta go.

Seeya!

God Bless!

Hey guys!

Been a real great day.

Got a new sport...TCHOUKBALL.

Awesome sport,learnt it so quickly thanks to the Awesome Coaches.

The coach said he likes my fighting spirit...i think he mistook my yelling at players for my fighting spirit...haha but we did great with a 6-5 win. Yi Hon's killer pass that went straight into my hands ended up with a "flying shot."

Next week,selections will be done for our first C-Boys squad for the next Inter-School tournament that takes place ... from 20-21 October i think.

Besides that,examinations are coming sooooooooooooooooooooooo quickly.

I just wanna get over with the examinations.

Then i can enjoy life after that...yesah. =)

Really short day...again haha.

Tomorrow theres FnN and Art...sigh.

Guess thats all.

Seeya!

Hello.

;)

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:)

I skipped Aikido thingy today ;)

Got caught by papa.

Fine, I ALMOST DID.

Happy now Andre ? :)

Yeah. Meow. Meow.

Meowmeow

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Well...that was Jazlynn. Again. Haha!

Today was great. Really relaxing. Had a real meaningful pre-examination talk by Mr Raj.

Looking forward to hammering Lenny. >:)

Choob.

Seeya.

Patience. And Courage?

Hellooooooooo!

Had a real fun day at church and all.

And...i did ask her today.

And i got the answer.

It really does speak the truth.

I'll just move wit the flow.

If we only see each other...6 months later.

I'll wait.

I'll be very,very patient.

You got my word.

XD

I guess i let it all out yesterday night.

Was i too harsh with my words?

I'm sorry. Just remember i didn't mean you feel guilty.

I just needed you to know how i felt.

Every time you say hi to me over msn,it just brings a smile on my face.

But i know...

I can either let go.

Or stay on.

Where should i go?

I was gonna tell you today,i even wrote the words i could say,i finally found the courage.

But now,its too far.

I don't need special antics...to make her love me...

I just need,whatever you feel deep down in your heart.

I can't keep reminding you that i'm in love with you.

If all i get is "Aww..."

What will that mean?

I just need it once.

Once. Just tell me. Please.

Don't keep me waiting.

I'm sure your heart will find its way.

If it doesn't come to me,and goes to someone else.

I will learn to let go.

But right now,all i need is an answer.

What will it take for you to really,really take what i say seriously?

When i told you i liked you,i wasn't lying.

I know its awkward how we met each other.

But i'm willing to bring it further.

What about you?

Its not your fault if you don't want to.

I just need to know...

If you feel the same.

Don't keep making me think i'm getting closer and closer...instead i'm just getting further away from you.

Its no use for me to flirt,make you laugh,or just talk to you.

I'm not saying if you don't feel the same i'd never talk to you.

I'm so hungry for that reply. It has been a month. (Or so.)

I just assume,if it doesn't come to me...then you just don't give a damn about me or you don't how to answer.

If you don't know,just come talk to me. Please.

If you look at a guy,and just like him because of the looks. You are not appreciating him.

Look on the inside. Never judge a book by its cover.

Don't feel bad or guilty after reading this. I am not typing this to make you feel sad or bad.

I'm just waiting for an answer.

I will wait.

Freak Accident.

Man! Today was the worst day of 2009!.

HELLO. MY NAME IS ANDRE KANG.

I AM SECONDARY 1

I JUST BROKE MY LEG TODAY.

I AM ALSO GOING TO BREAK MY FACE.

SO.

EXAMS ARE COMING. I HAVE TO STUDY

THEN I WILL BREAK MY FACE AFTER.

TODAY WAS VERY FUN, I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL

TO GET AN X RAY WEEEE.

AND ALL OF THAT,WAS TYPED BY THE WONDERFUL JAZLYNN

OF COURSE IM WONDERFUL. MEOW MEOW.

If you're wondering how she got on.

Google Teamviewer.

You'll get it.

And yes she summarised whatever i wanted to typed.

K.

Well...the accident was an accident.

Muhaimin,ain't your fault.

Accidents do happen. And Mr Gamini is a lousy medic! Haha!

Seeya!

meow meow woof woof.

jazlynn.