Yeah today was good.

I'd like to share something i said in DCG today.

The boys were supposed to share their personal experience where they were afraid,and the first thing they did was to Pray.

This was what i said.

There was once i wanted to do something for my friend's birthday. I did it,but on my way home i just wondered would she like it? What if it doesn't turn out well? This went on till 10+ until i revealed the "gift" to her. It went smoothly. But it could have only gone this way because i prayed to God. I prayed to God and after that i could tell myself that God is with me. I have nothing to be afraid of or be nervous. Because i have God.

And well thats one...

And yeah i'm still thinking about her.

I do still have my doubts.

These doubts are soon making me think the wrong way. I am thinking in such a way where i have no chance at all...

Yeah,i am always thinking,is she just talking to me to make me happy? Is she just faking it? I don't know. If i did know,i wouldn't be here anymore. I'll wait. =)

But i do know that what i plan to do is very,very risky. I know its sort of a "gamble."

And if i fail with this little plan of me,i'll definitely be scarred for life.

All i can do is pray...and leave it to God.

He will help me.

My plans bring us all the way to 2010. Even further,i guess.

Now comes the hard part...what if she doesn't feel the same way?

Most likely you all would be like "its another doubt."

Yes it is,but its very,very different. If she doesn't feel the same way at all...i really don't know what to do or say.

I have yet to get the best out of me.