Why does your pride make you run away ?

Haiz...today was ok. But the thing that keeps going on and on in my mind is Ameera. I just wonder why whenever she sees me she looks down ? I don't believe you are shy. Fact is , you shouldn't be. Everything is over,and hey,you have someone with you right ? Why be bothered when people say "Hey andre is looking at you?" Its either your friends are blind or they are just dreaming of themselves been stared at by me. Shit heads. Man...i feel worse than you do Ameera,everytime i see you,you just look down...you know before i can open my mouth it closes again because i don't know to say hi or just keep quiet. Yes i must admit i was jealous,when i failed to catch you,instead this guy did instead. Fine,i lost it. I was plainly too slow. But if you didn't like what i was doing,why didn't you tell Putri or Salina ? I know you aren't familiar with me,those 2 girls are ! Ever since then i promised myself to never think or talk about you ever again. But whenever i see you,all those thoughts just run through my mind the whole day. I know i can't blame you ... its okay i guess. I'm leaving the school soon anyway. Could it just be infactuation ? Or is it a real feeling ? Is a love a commitment , promise or just something we can mess with ? I know that you really don't like me...and an end has been put to it. I guess even if i come to school next year to visit my teachers,and if i'm lucky i bump into you,if you look down on any particular day,i will pay my sister $5 (What a lousy bet) If you look at me for at least 5 seconds,i will hug mdm chong for 10 minutes (Your body will be very very numb) What unrealistic bets. But nevermind. I guess i can do nothing to just get a hi. All i can ask of you is not to be disturbed by band members who say "Eh Ameera andre likes you." No don't get bothered,if its not true you wouldn't be right ? Enough of my bragging...just need to do some reflecting.

Anyway today's Graduation rehearsal was a total fuck up.
First start was like shit. We got a scolding from SK. FOR NO REASON.
WE WERE UNFAMILIAR WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON. THE TEACHERS IN THE HALL SAID WE HAD TO SAY OUR PART. BUT YOU CAME TO US AND YELLED AND SAID WE ONLY HAD TO SAY GOOD MORNING. HELL YOU SHOULD HAVE JUST ASKED.

Other than that...everything was ok.
2-6pm had Rehearsal...woo yeah baby.

Didn't go for aikido,i was really tired after the rehearsal.
Sister bought donuts..yummy.

I guess thats all for today folks~
Seeya.